thoughts right now

a survey

I take it you like someone? If so, who do you like?
James Franco

Any sexual stuff happen in the past two months?
no

Is your phone right next to you, or at least close by?
nope. i don’t even know where it is.

What windows are open on your computer right now?
firefox n notepad

Anything you would like to say to someone?
emm…hello?

Last place you went besides your house?
the mall

Have you ever wanted someone so bad, and then they completely stopped talking to you?
no.

Is your phone a touch screen?
yup..HTC Incredible

Who is the last person to call you?
my mom

What was the last movie you watched?
The Hunger Games

What are you doing tomorrow?
eat, watch tv, read magazine..

What would you do if your parents walked in on you having sex?
die of shame

Was 2011 a good year for you?
it was okay..

Do any of your friends dislike each other?
no

Who knows your biggest secret?
no one..i keep it to myself

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
nah.

How do you know?
because nobody told me about their feeling.

Do you care if people hate you for no reason?
nah..it’s not my prob.

Are you in a good mood?
yep..quite good

Do you think ex’s can remain friends?
yes, but it would be weird.

Were you single on your last birthday?
yes. and all other birthdays before.

Are you starting to realize anything?
yep. i realize a lot of things actually.

Have you ever thought about giving up on someone, but couldn’t?
no

Do you follow rules or break them?
i follow them, reluctantly. if i’m feeling rebellious i’ll bend them.

Are you currently looking forward to anything?
sleeping. fapping.

Could you go a day without eating?
yes. but i don’t want to. i used to though, in my younger days.

How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?
none.

What are you doing right now, besides this?
playing the guitar, watching inkigayo

When you listen to a new song, do you usually play it over and over?
yes but then afraid it’ll get old real fast.

Do you scream stuff out the car window?
nope. i only curse inside, which annoys whoever was in my car.

You’re single, right?
yep.

How’s that going for you?
it gets lonely at times, but i manage.

Has anyone laid on your bed besides you?
nope.

Who’s the first person you spoke to in 2012?
can’t remember..

Do you prefer being called your actual name or a nick name?
nickname.

Do you ever want to get married?
yes of course!

Is there someone who makes you blush when you just say hi to them?
no. haven’t felt anything like that since high school.

How was your Saturday night?
a bore.

god knows how long i’ve been missing

hello again!

I have since quit my job (yesterday was my last day). Actually I didn’t really quit, just that my one year contract has come to an end. And I did not want to continue working that job. Even though the place is great and the people were great.

Anyway, I just wanna write a journal stating my feelings about this whole day. Originally I was looking forward to the day that I am free from the job that I hate. But when it comes, I just felt very empty. Like I was reluctant to leave. But then I reminded myself of why I wanted to quit in the first place, and then I just accepted the fact that I was meant to leave the place.

So I went around saying goodbye to the CEO who gave me the job and my mom’s boss who recommended me in the first place. Said goodbye to my colleagues…there was a few I didn’t get to see coz they weren’t in their places when I got there.

Then while I was pulling out of the office building and on to the road, I miscalculated and my car hit the sidewalk concrete thingy and an eerie sound was heard and I felt all eyes were on me and my car. I was mortified! Hyperventilating now, and I really wanted to see what damage was done on my car. But the road was long and I can’t really pull over, so I drove to the nearest petrol station.

I was expecting something horrible. I got out of my car and walked quickly to the other side of the car. It was scratched all along the side skirting/bumper and it almost fell off, but still intact. It was cracked. I was thankful that the damage was not as horrible than I had imagined in my head. Then I drove the rest of the way home.

I think I forgot to mention that I had half of the day off because I wanna finish off my annual leave (1/2 day). I reached my house and when I reached for the keys in mt dashboard, it was missing! Whaa? Did I forgot my keys? Dangggit!

So yep, I forgotten my keys when I go off in the morning. The day was slowly becoming worse. I called my mom (who was in a seminar that day) and I said that I didn’t have my keys. She said she’ll be home around 5..

Hmm..basically I wasted my 1/2 day off waiting at Carrefour hypermarket, reading a magazine, waiting my mom to come home. Fail.

Then, while I was getting absorbed in the magazine, I heard my name being called. I looked up, and there’s this guy with his mom carrying the shopping cart. I looked at him and I barely recognized him. He was my old friend from primary school! It’s been almost 13 years since I last saw him! I’m secretly proud that I guessed his name correctly, because I suck at names. Usually people will recognize me first and I knew the face, but can’t find the name for the life of me (that’s a whole another post).

So we talked for a while, his mom did not know who I was till he told her my name. Hehe it was weird and awkward seeing your long lost friend..so we didn’t talk a lot..just the basics. And his mom was there so we couldn’t really catch up. Still it was nice.

A good little conclusion to a shitty day.

But I still feel bad about the car and also me leaving the company.

:(

i dreamed of Tori Amos last night. what a nice way to end 11.11.11!

…and it’s not like i just saw her and went crazy. it was really intimate and we shared stories, and i sang her song in front of her. but it’s a shame that i forgot what song it was. it would have been my favorite song til i die! one thing for sure, she was very beautiful, almost divine-like. sigh. 

i remember asking her (while hugging her lol surreal) when she’s gonna tour in asia. she said she already did that in august. when i woke up i realized it was Incubus who came here in august. haha Tori you fooled me! 

finally i got a Tori dream. must have been that i listened back to her after a long time last night as i was falling asleep and i slept while her songs were playing in the background. very cool.